countdown to 2009

2008 is coming 2 an end...
i dunno whether its just me.. but de yrs seem 2 go by faster n faster...

de past yr: wow!!!

its had some of de lowest points of my life - being chewn up by as$#)!&$ n spat out.. making some of de stupidest mistakes of my life n still suffering for it, falling 4 de wrong person, been used n manipulated n humiliated

but despite all de crap.... i've had some of de highest point in my life.....
- exam results (3/4 of it anywayz) , emcee-ing + videoing 4 de rotaract installation, mooting, hong kong, made a ton of good friends, gotten close to so many others, ridiculously fun times with my frens just laughing like hell...

God has been amazing to me this past year:)

n i hope that He continues to shower his blessings upon me n that I am able to build a closer relationship with him:)

holidayz!!!

holiday!!! yay!!!!
i love de holidays..
i promised myself i wud start studying on de very 1st day of de hols.. its been a week.. n i havent started.. at all!! aargh..

de more stressful n hectic ur life gets.. de more each holiday means.. its so.. fun... relaxing... enjoyable.. heaven on earth!!!

screw studies!! hahahah

i love de holidays!!

just realized dat i've spent a bomb on christmas presents this year.. de most so far in all d yrs i think...
but it's all good:)
de joy on another's face is priceless compared 2 wtv i've spent:)

i wish dis holiday lasts forever.. de thought of going back 2 college..... *shudder*....

the boyz...

i have 3 brothers... my 3 moot siblings...

Daniel bong :
insightful.. helpful.... willling 2 go de extra mile... often on a totally different wavelength...
my simple mind does not always understand him...
needs more social skills...(no offence)... but i think hanging out with de rest of us cool people.. will get him those skills:) hahahaha
oh.. ya... btw..ur de boogieman from now on.. children shall be afraid of u!!
Kodomo lion toothpaste advertisement:) scare kids with ur scary smile....
muahahahha

Navinthar Gunasegaran:
my worthy opponent...
i think he's so funny.... n sooo ccomel.. especially when he gets all shy n coy when u ask him about erm hmmmm....... hahahaha .... i always feel short next 2 u.... ** no dirty looks counsel**...
HE's a permanent darlie advertisement:)

Jaganraj Ramachandran:
very nice guy.. helped me a lot... me more than de rest of de team...
spent hours trying 2 calm my fears n helped me 2 feel better... (altho it didnt always work... but u tried.. which was sooooo sweet:) ) great moral support...
can make a girl feel special.. even when she's having de worst day of her life:) not many guyz can do that:)
n super blur... has this lost look deer caught in the headlights look 3/4 of the time......!!!
Permanent Colgate advertisement:)

in conclusion:
u guyz can have form a toothpaste advertisement company together:)
i love u guyz.... had an absolutely great time in chillis de other nite!!!
laughed till i nearly had a heart attack!!
we shud totally n absolutely do it again!!!

partner:)

chiew ee.. my team mate:)

i think she did an absolutely fantastic job...
she spoke well....
learnt my points 4 rebuttal.....
in addition 2 dealing with her own work...
She did a kick ass rebuttal!!!
Her memorial work = excellent
we wud have won that as well but for a FREAKING TECHNICAL BREACH dat lost us 10 freaking points!!!! grrrrr.. but we learn from our mistakes.. right chiew ee:)

i admire this girl wei...
balancing the responsibility of moots... being de rotaract president.. getting shit from ppl dat she has no choice but 2 be nice 2.... studies.. dats a lot 4 one person 2 handle... but she does it... extremely well!!!!
i wud probably crash n burn...
she's a real trooper;)
during d moots... she was actually sick.. but she still fought on..
controlling her germs instead of letting them control her...
(something i must learn 2 master:)

i have a lot 2 learn from her ..... a lot!!!

i am soooooo proud of u girl!!!!
i couldnt have asked 4 a better partner :)
i think we make a good team...
i hope i have lived up 2 ur expectations:)

--- no offence 2 de boyz/ any1 i might work with in d future... i love u guyz:)-----

Mo0ting

my very 1st mooting: a levels
Level: within college
Emotion be4 : wreck.. disastrous
Emotion during: nervous as hell
Judge: scary as hell
Actual moot: tormenting
My performance: faster than a bullet train... rambling..disastrous..... blithering idiot....
My vow: to NEVER EVER EVER MOOT AGAIN!!!! EVER!!!!

but.... i still went ahead... this year...

2nd mooting: part 1
Level: representing college
Emotion be4: questioning wy i voluntarily put myself thru hell again
Emotion during : not 2 bad
Judge: prelim - really nice
: finals - nice n scary
Actual moot: fun
My performance: smiley... not 2 fast..
Result : we actually won....

n,...
went 2 de finals...
n....
we won.. against uitm...
n....
now.... we won....

WE ARE GOING 2 HONG KONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!
we ARE GOING 2 REPRESENT MALAYSIA!!!!!
THIS HAS GOTTA BE 1 OF DE MOST AWESOME THINGS THAT HAS EVER EVER HAPPENED 2 ME!!!!!!

thank u GOd!!!!!!
soooooooooooooooooo much!!!!!
YOU are soooooooooooooo amazing!!!!
i believe u made this happen 4 a reason....
n i'm going 2 find out what that is.. n Learn from wtv u have planned 4 me:)

ripped?

2day was moot practice...
boy was it 1 hell of a practice...
mooting is not easy!!
it requires a lot of hard work.. perseverance... quick thinking..

its a lot like acting.. faking it.. altho u know nuts....

i guess this is my platform 2 even start thinking bout an acting career....

our judges 2day really really put us in d spot... dissected us... puleed out our organs 1 by 1....

we got 2 improve.. learn.. n fast!!!
we've got 1 week... with a 100000000000 n 1 things 2 do!!!

n here i m blogging...
de irony...
sigh....

yoga

my friend wrote a really interesting note about de banning of yoga...
my sentiments?

wat a bunch of morons!!
how can 1 thing lead 2 another??
wat kinda crap n bull is that??

does smoking neccesarily lead on to becoming a drug addict?
does eating vegetables slowly make u start trying to eat trees?
does eating mutton lead to you eating a live goat>?
does taking a bath naked lead to you running around the streets naked?
does stealing a chocolate bar when ur a kid mean u'll go on 2 be a bank robber when ur older and thus u shud be banned from ever entering a bank/store ever again?

dear malaysian idiots who are thinking of this,
stop treating the ppl u r making these rules 4... like they r a bunch of imbeciles!!
i believe dat de muslim community consists of people who know whats right for them..
so... pls give them some credit to be able to make the right decisions...
as much as u enjoy parenting.. get over the fact that malaysian muslims are no longer children and they can indeed decided for themselves what's best...

yoga has so many other useful uses... n most of the time does not even get into the chanting for non believers of the chant.. so.. why the worry? n big hoo haa?

ever heard of the saying think before you speak?
clearly.. some ppl have forgotten about that...

aargh!!

so many things 2 do...
2day i actually used my brains.. 2 think really hard!!
my head started hurting like hell!!
guess i need 2 give my brains a work out more often...
or maybe not.. part 1 n icrc r already doing that 4 me....

my life : 16/11/2008

its ridiculous that we have 2 print so many pages 4 the tort cases!!
de freaking case is 60 over pages.. 1/2 my ink finished wei...
i think i'm gonna go do de printing shop n do nxt time...
ink is expensive!!

i've got so much of research n reading 2 do for the mooting.....
thinking has never been so time consuming n energy draining!!
aaargh!!!

assignments r coming like bullets from a machine gun!!
soooo many 2 do.. with sooo little time 2 do it!!
4 assignments due dis week...
so dat leaves..
4 assignments... n 2 days to do it...

Dear God.. can i have extra miracles this year?
I really need it!!

its all about de chase isnt it?

its all about de chase isnt it?
y is it... that when u like some1.. then the person actually likes u back...
things get boring...

its all fun n exciting when no1 is admitting anything.. its only flirting..
but when it gets more real.. it b'comes a turn off?

when some1 clearly is not interested in u..
or is not as bothered.... suddenly de person has such an appeal?

the human mind works in twisted ways.. dont u think?

memories

i miss school!!!
soooo much!!!
de good old days!!!

whr recess was fun!!!
puposely move slowly 2 annoy de prefects...
we cud run into each others classes whenever we felt like it ...
we wud have boy-watching sessions....
talk about politics n how we're so fed up with it...
spend hours on de phone after spending de whole day with each othr...
hide the liquid paper when de disicpline teacher comes around...
bully teachers into telling us wat was coming out 4 de exams(altho it didnt really work!!)..
dissect rats...
complain bout how many flights of stairs we had 2 walk up...
sit down n laugh about de stupidest things...
de dance practices.. the fights.. the make ups...
the crazy moments.. the kodak moments..

good old days...
i miss school:(

24 hours?

did u know thr r 24 hrs in a day?
duh... or else u'd be a real idiot rite...

do u realize how much of it is spent in doing.. nothing?

i keep feeling like i've got no time.... n i realize.. dats coz...
i've been spending my time...
daydreaming...
staring into space...
being stoned...
stuck in a void of nothingness....
i'm very dysfunctional at de moment...

i think i need 2 go hit myself on de head 2 make de nuts n bolts in thr start working again..

70 yr old

i'm not 70... but i have de body of a 70 yr old!!
why??
1. i'm always getting sick
2. i'm always tired
3. drink anything cold - i'll get sick
4. get wet in de rain - i'll get sick
5. yesterday my veins started popping out of my feet...

i need 2 drink some of the *feel 50 yrs younger crap* they've been
advertising..
bummer...

freaking out!!

aargh!!! wats happening 2 me?!?!
my brain has stopped working!!...
i've been staring at books n words.. nothing's going into my brain...
i'm gettinf scared!!...
i don wanna screw up my exams!!
it doesnt help dat ppl keep saying stupid things like top scorer bla bla bla...
ppl!! get over it!!
dat was last yr!!
its an old story!! chapter closed!!
whole new ball game this year!!
n rite now... i'm definitely on de losing team...
going 2 have a break down soon...
aargh!!!

i have decided....
no matter how good a person i thought u were...
de way u've treated me.... has done nothing 2 even remotely suggest u r a good person...
i dont know wy ur doing it...
i keep telling myself ur a good person..
u have good reasons....
but i cant anymore...

i have wasted enough tears on u....
i have wasted enough time on u....
i am drained...

God has made me a promise.....
When i've built a relationship with Him... n de person i'm meant to be with has built 1 too....
God will bring the person into my life....
Now is not the right time...
I need 2 learn patience...
I need 2 learn independence..
I need to learn to love unconditionally...
i Need to learn 2 trust that God knows whats best 4 me...

will that person be u?
i dont know...
but i need 2 stop wasting my life thinking about u...
coz i don wanna miss the right 1 if n when.. he does come along;)

lies n lies n more lies...

i saw u from a distance... all was good....
the distance was bridged....
a friendship was formed... all was good....
the admiration grew.... the trust grew... the love grew....
all was good...

but then u left....
u walked away....
u didnt even say goodbye....

u said u dreamt about me... i guess u lied...
u said that u enjoy talking 2 me... i guess u lied....
u said u love being with me... i guess u lied....
u said i've become an important person in ur life... i guess u lied...
u said u will always be there for me no matter what... i guess u lied....

everything that i thought u were.... seems to have b'come a lie...
i dont get screwed over.... then how did this happen??
have i b'come such a bad judge of character?
or have i been so blind.. i closed my eyes 2 de real u n saw only wat i wanted 2 see?

u said u loved me..... u lied?

*sigh*

pregnant?!?

something's wrong with me....

i'm having really weird pregnant ppl syndrome...

i suddenly have cravings... which disappear the minute i get to the shop...
many perfumes make me feel sick...
i keep having ridiculous mood swings.... perfectly happy 1 minute n de next.. shaking with fear n then anger for no apparent reason!!
but i am not pregnant!!!
n wont ever be until i get married;)

but....
this is scary....
is this is wat being pregnant even remotely feels like... my husband better ne 1 hell of a guy!!!

rollercoasters!!

rollercoasters!!!
whee!!!!
fear, excitement,de adrenaline rush!!
awesome!!!
who needs drugs?
just get on a rollercoaster!!
n scream!!!
whee!!

(dis is so random.. i know.. haha)

strange..

i have a fren.. her name is petpet... a.k.a. the horny one....
haha... sorry girl.. but its true.. rite?

we seem to have very strange experiences 2gade:)

don go off getting all sick minded on me k...

during our skooling days... when we used 2 walk 2gether outside skool....
a lady rolled down her window n shouted " jgn pegang pegang...!! (which we were not doing btw!!)
a grp of boyz screamed at us.. r u guyz lesbians?!?

it only happens with u pet... its ur face la.. haha...
(btw... both of us r straight.. well i am at least... haha)

good times... good times... i miss school:)

HSM 3 : review

high school musical... review

1. the dance moves were good
2. few good songs
3. too much romance involved
4. the skirts got shorter
5. some overacting - making it look fake
6.stareting didnt make much sense.... but

all in all... i enjoyed it;)

rotaract charter, installation and charity banquet

one word 2 describe it = AWESOME!!!

de performances were good...
de food was good....
everything went well:)
(besides de fact dat my acting career is over even be4 it has begun!!)

we all really worked 2gether as a team...
every1 had a job... every1 did their part n helped each other out...
it was like being part of a family:)
it felt like being with my high skool frens (who r btw MY BESTEST FRENS)...
when we used 2 work on our dance projects 2gether:)

every1 contributes/tries their best to:)

i've made the right choice in becoming a part of this club:)
no regrets... not yet...
hopefully...not ever:)

hotlink

i think these fellas r cheating me....
i've been a loyal customer 4 so long...

i had RM10 at 11 am.. n i had RM 0.01 at 7.p.m...
i made a lot of calls but so many that no1 picked up!!
n they charged me!!

if only i hadnt had my number 4 so long.. i wud boycott dis ppl wei...

wat nonsense!!

sweet young things

my little step sis performed at her kindergarten concert 2day....
the kids were all really really good!!

reminded of my good old days.. whr i performed on dat exact same stage.. doing de lion king n some banghra!! (not bad eh.. banghra when i was 5!! haha)

ever heard of sway? its dis really nice song..
n little 4 yr old kids.. boys n girls.. were all coupled up n shaking it!!
it was soooo sweet... n sooo cute!!
little girls n boys holding hands....
so simple...

flash forward.. 10 yrs from now... dat exact same thing.. wud be a big problem...

life's always more fun when your young n innocent ( or at least pretend to be!!)

definitely a night to remember... that thr r still some things in life.. that really are that simple:)

teresa kok vs psychos

i saw teresa kok today.. in church..
she was in pink...
she lookd sweet... but tired...
she has gone thru a lot....
her family has been threatened...
this is socially.. unacceptable behaviour by de hooligans who r tormenting her!!

give de lady a break.. wud u?
she hasnt done anything wrong...
nothing even close 2 de murderers of poor little kids...
like nurin...
yet it doesnt make sense... wy they r never hanged...
but civilians... r detained...

politics never makes sense does it?

adopted?

i think i'm adopted.....
neither 1 of my parents r like me... n i'm not like them....

my dad offered 2 take care of my granma... i cudnt believe my ears.....
really?
dat was amazing
....................NOT!!!!!!

Wats his idea of taking care?
dumping her in an old folks home....
"at least she'll be taken care of".... he says....
my aunt currently cares 4 her...
is taking her away from her family n junking her a better option?

his point: de ppl who look after her shudnt complain...
true...

but caring 4 an elderly person is difficult...
no matter how much u love de person... de back breaking hrs u put in... of course u'll complain...

its like caring 4 a child...
no matter how much u love it...
when his/her behaviour is terrible.... u complain...
its calld a part of life!!!

i almost wantd 2 scream at him...
"i'll keep dat in mind when ur old n need 2 be cared 4...,"...

don get me wrong.. i think homes r fine...IF N ONLY IF they r absolutely neccesary...
eg: all working kids, no maid, a temporary arrangement.....

i was aways scared my granma was gonna do dat 2 my grandpa...
i told my self i'd make sure he went somewhr near... so i can visit him every othr day at least...

family... means de world 2 me...
but it doesnt 2 so many ppl.....

i don like many of de things my parents do.. not 2 me.. but as ppl...
technically... altho i love my family... some of de things they do irks me 2....
wat can i do?

pray real hard.. i dont bcome them...
learn from their mistakes...

n BELIEVE.... they don make me who i am.. i do.. by de choices i make...
God does... by what he has planned out 4 me.....
n i'm gonna leave it 2 him...
he's always taken care of me..
n i dont think he'll stop:)

being a baby

i waited today..
i was having stomach ache... she knew....
i was tired.. its been a long day... she knows....
i wanted her 2 come n pick me up... she knows..

she didnt offer... till it was 2 late....

if it was my sister... she wud have gone...
she wud have flown from 1 end of de world 2 de other...
she wudnt have let her wait....
she wudnt have let her wait...
alone... in de dark... like de perfect victim 2 get snatched/mugged.,....

i feel like a 2nd class child.....

being a baby?
maybe...
but when parents have double standards....
i don care if i'm being a whiny child....

the end..

when i leave this world....
wat would i wanted 2 have been able 2 have done in this life?

its only times when those who are close n dear 2 us leave.. do we start wondering...

i've wasted so much months thinking bout ppl who dont deserve it...
i've wasted so much days in my own fantasies of 'what ifs' instead of getting real..
i've wasted time crying bout those who dont know wat it means 2 hurt others...
i've wasted precious moments being angry rather than forgiving...

wat shud i be doing?

i shud be trying 2 build a deeper relationship with God
i shud be spending time with those i love de most..
i shud be telling them how much they mean 2 me...
i shud be trying 2 make some1's life a better place...
i shud be thinking less about me n more about othrs!!

u noe wat sux?
its de fact that i know i'm going 2 repeatedly waste time on certain stupid things n regret it later...
i'm gonna try harder this time...
i hope it works...

i want 2 know that i've made a difference when i leave this world...

after all....
The Big Guy up there did put me here 4 a good reason rite?
i hope i make Him proud:)

ms fix it!

i am sooo drawn 2 imperfections....
no1 is perfect = fact of life..

but i tend 2 get "attached" 2 ppl who i wanna fix.. dats bad...
i realized i've been doing it 4 all my life till like a few mths ago...

imperfections still attract me.. way more than they wud u..
but now... i wanna love those details.. i wanna accept n understand it...
n thats exactly wat i'm doing or at least trying 2:)

ms fixer has officially left the building:)

aargh!!

i...
i miss....
i miss u...
i misss u so....
i miss u sooo much....

aargh!!! wats wrong with me?

i should be feeling like...

i....
i hate u...
i hate u 4 being a @##$%%^&&#@%&*$#%@%!!!

aargh!!

who m i talking bout?
hopefully... u'll never know!!
muahahahaah

*shit... i've officially lost it*

wonder woman.... vroom....

women can multi task better than men.....
its a fact of life...

at 1 point in life.. i thought i'd have 2 work n study 2 support myself,,,,
God has blessed me n i've managed 2 take up a full time course...

i admire those who manage 2 do both n still do well... my hats off 2 u...

especially.. my dear rotaract president...
managing an entire club.. starting from scratch.. n working it up 2 an award winning status is simply fantastic!!!
so much time n effort went into forming the club.. but she still brought her A game when it came to the exams!!!
amazing!!
*wonder woman*

u certainly have gained a standing ovation 4 that:)

hopefully.. i'll be able 2 learn a lot from u in the next couple of mths:)
looking forward to it:)

malaysia.... *sigh*

wat on earth is happening in this country?

how can a person be detained based on a rumour??
its like suspending u from ur job b'coz some1 heard a rumour that ur looking for another...
some1 could easily have cooked de whole thing up!!
its so ridiculous!!

ppl of high ranking making silly statements...
this clearly shows.. u dont know the law... u dont know wat on earth ur talking about.. n u don deserve ur post!!

how can u detain some1 4 reporting issues as they are?
the person who said the wrong issues in de 1st place is the one who should be punished....

the truth will set u free...
i'm embarassed 2 say that this is clearly not the case in the land i have grown up in n called my home......

kids:)

i love kids...
i adore them(most of them) as much as humanly possible...
i need 2 spend time with kids at least 1 a week.. without it..
i'm just so incomplete n everything feels so wrong...
i wish i had a baby/ at least some1 i see really often...

no way i'm getting my own anytime soon.. my mum made it pretty clear that she will be kicking me out of the house...

*sigh*

i'm too young 2 have baby cravings...

loony banoony

i think i finally get crazy ppl...
dat doesnt mean dat i'm crazy.. (altho some of my frens wud beg 2 differ at this point).. haha

if u keep thinking about something again n again n going over it over n over in ur head...
u will lose it...
sooner/later....
hence... do not drive urself crazy unless its really woth it:)

this is a msg from the "trying really hard to be sane society"..

thank u n see u soon:)

mean it

wat does sorry/ i was wrong mean?
it means

• i regret my ways
• i've made a mistake....
• i dont plan on doing it again...
• i know i've done something 2 hurt othrs/u.....
• i wanna change

but when u say i'm sorry/ wrong.. but everything stays exactly de same...

do the world a favour would u?

just shut up.. dont say anything... coz.... u really don care.. stop acting like u do!!

clothes

i love clothes!!
but i absolutely hate folding them n ironing!!!
it's like a form of cruel punishment as far as i'm concerned:)

i wanna get 1 of those machines dat de shop ppl use.. it looks like a vacuum cleaner.. but works like an iron:)

the miracles of technology:)

changing rebecca

i've changed....
so much over the last year...
i hope 4 the better...
for some things.. i'm still trying...
but some things.. i just can't....
its just the way i am.... wat do i do?

should i go against wat makes me me.. just coz i want 2 fit in?
should i be a rock out of 4 fear that showing feelings will come off as being emotional?
should i shut up b'coz i have a tendency 2 say things that make it seem like i'm living in the past(when in reality i'm just saying it b'coz it came across my mind!!)?
should i pretend that everything is ok with wat u say.. just coz i dont want u 2 hate me?
should i call u when i know u listen but u dismiss everything that happens 2 me as silly?
should i be quietly killing myself by wat u say?

why should i care?
i'm sick about worrying about wat othr ppl say/think...
but....its human nature.. ppl cant help it...
u want ppl 2 like u....
but from now on.. i'm going 2 try 2 bother less n less....
n if dat means u like me less.. than so be it..

this is me.. n from now on.. i'm going 2 be more me... n less of wat u want me 2 be.. : )
i've learnt that from a person dear to me..
who i miss so much rite now...
thank u 4 reminding me 2 be me:)

a good fren

wat does it mean 2 be a good fren? if they have problems/need a shoulder 2 cry on.. u be there 4 them..
wat about those who dont have problems? how do u be a good fren then?
some 1 said.. by being a chatting buddy.. but that can be any Tom, Dick n Harry..

i think...

if u can tell some1 anything.,. = good friend
say anything and not be judged for it = good friend
understands who u are n accepts u 4 who u r but at the same time gives u advice when u r self destructing = good fren
can call at any hour of the day just b'coz u got an email from the boy u've been crushing on = good fren
when u dont call for a week/2... actually bothers... = good fren
remembers the little things... = good fren

:)

birthdays

for me... birthdays are... have always been.. special occasions...
they dont have 2 be celebrated elaborately... but as long as it is recognized..
for the 1st time after many yrs.. memebers of my extended family didnt come.. with good reason i guess..

but... u know wat made my day?

my grandfather...

he rarely talks... likes to sing a lot... sometimes forgets who i am...

but today.. he kept saying..
i'm so happy.. i'm so happy....
n when my granma asked him wy...
he said... its rebecca's birthday:) (n i think its also coz he got cake.. haha)

that's de sweetest thing i cud ever ask for.. and i thank God for giving me these little moments & wonderful ppl that make my life so much more meaningful:)

honesty

it sux when some1 tells u sumting bad... especially bout urself... but yet..
we say... be honest..
i've been getting a lot of honest answers lately from my frens.. i feel the pinch.. but i know they r looking out 4 me...

its not easy balancing out trying 2 be a better person... but at the same time.. not changing who u are...
but wat bout de ppl who are naturally horrible? (hope dats not me!! haha)
wudnt dat mean that they end up changing who they really are as well?

the balance... its wat i'm looking for:)

emotional luggage

i dont know wats wrong with me....
i'm not an unhappy person.. but i just realized.. dat sometimes... the things i say.. tend 2 make ppl feel dat way... coz i focus on de bad rather than de good i guess...
in my head i'm always looking on de bright side.. but it doesnt come out dat way...
i think i tend 2 feel better when i let out de bad.. coz then.. only de good part remains in me.. n i feel better.. guess i shud also think bout how dats making me sound.. something 2 think about..
anywayz,,, 2 all my good frenz(who wud probably be de only ones reading this anyway)!! haha...
thank u so much 4 all ur support n i love u guyz tons!!
even tho i may be so complicated n flawed.. thanks 4 sticking around:)

new govt?

sept 13/16th.. whichever it is..
has been set as the date by which a possible "new govt" might come into being...
an ardent opposition suppoter... an anti govertment individual.. i am neither:)

Rome was not built in a day.... many election promises have yet 2 be fulfilled.. it will take time...
the opposition.. are largely new 2 de world of politics altho many r experienced...
thus.. we need to give them time n they need 2 give themselves time 2 fulfill all their promises.. n slowly learn the ropes..

would u put your life in the hands of an 18 yr old who has just found out the meaning of real freedom?.... i wouldnt...the 18 yr old would be the new govt...

however... once he matures.. a yr/2.. n has proven himself worthy.. u wud trust him with greater responsibilities....
similarly... once the opposition "matures"... proves themselves more.. they wud have more ppls support.. more than they already do!!

in addition.. thr is a higher chance.. of less of an anti govt spirit.. n a more.. "we like u because your actually good" spirit!!

pls don get me wrong.. i am in no way casting doubt on their capabilities.. but i do think the take over is premature... they need to grow more, learn the ropes, have a better understanding... and then... if & when they take over... i do believe.. that it would be what's best for the country..

on the othr side of the coin.. i don know what the mp's are thinking by allowing the dna bill through.. a minister had the cheek to say they can just fill in the missing pieces later...
as a law student.. i have learnt that.. although no law can envision all possible circumstances n cover it... the law makesrs SURE AS HELL TRY!!!

it is ridiculous to allow something that is doubtful from the beginning!
wat is wrong with having a detailed consultation?
if thr r no dodgy reasons n all is being done for the good of the country..... why not??

if the govt really wants 2 prove itself worthy n capable... they should allow consultation.. n whenn it comes out in its original form.. they can be proud of themselves;) if not.. at least the ppl would appreciate the fact that they are willing n open 2 change... as well as to listen to the voice of the ppl n not living out their own political dreams...

junk in the trunk...

i went out with my fren the other day...
she told me i put on weight!!!! noooooooooooooooooooooo!!! after all de jogging??!!!!
why?!?! this sux!!!

when i asked her whr.. she said my butt!!
my butt looks de same size 2 me!!
this is so weird!!
my body is b'coming like seasons of the year... different parts get bigger/fatter at different parts of the year!!

what the &*%^#@$^%?

mum: ur a naughty girl.. if you keep doing things like this.. mummy wont love you...
mum: go to you room!
mum: dont ever talk to me again!!
mum: u r so stupid.. where's ur common sense? ur an embarassment!!

mean... but common.. possible.. rite?

here's something new:

mum: u never ever listen 2 me.. ur not my child anymore.. next time u act up, i'm gonna whack u..i'll whack u soo hard until u bleed all over..... n after that.. what will u become? a pile of shit.. useless to me..a big lump of useless shit... where does shit sleep?with the rubbish..

if this doesnt sound absolutely hurting 2 u.. how about de fact dat it was said 2 a 6 yr old?

wy do i always see these things happening? (i swear.. i heard it with my own ears)

thanks mummy for never saying that 2 me:)

jail

i've been 2 jail.... pudu jail... cant quite believe it huh? innocent girl like me? haha..
well.. i have.. as a visitor during my skool dayz:)
de copy cat crime i talked bout earlier... its pretty disturbing..
when i went 2 jail.... i saw videos of de prisoners being hit with thick rotans... n how the guyz but got all red n scarred...
they took us to the room where ppl get hanged... the sound of the preparation before the prisoner is brought in 2 be hung.. the actual process itself.. the sound of the black bag being put over his head... it still rings in my ears...

dat makes me think... if skool kids were all taken 2 visit prisons... 2 see how horrible n shitty n frightening it is... wud that possibly make them scared enuff 2 stop committing crimes in the future?
its a theory... which...i think.. might just work:)
if ever...i do anything.. dat makes me have 2 go thr... pls shoot me.. its 1 hell hole i do not ever want 2 have be in...

flash back

remember those good old days of skool? i miss it... a lot...
remember when we used 2 write karangans/essays bout how teens get influenced by tv shows n frens... back in skool.. i tot 2 myself.... wat bullshit!! wat kind of idiot gets influenced so easily?
now... i have a confession... i realized.. we all are those idiots...
wy do u think so many skool kids get busted 4 making out?
wy do u think u make out or have started 2 or are even thinking about it?...
wy do u think some ppl smoke when in reality they hate it?
something to think about huh....

poor child in some part of the world.. does a copy cat of some stupid video game n ends up killing a cab driver... dats juz totally stupid....
but who's 2 judge?
we all get influenced 2... its juz dat... some amount of sanity in each of us stops us from crossing that line...
lets just hope... dat more people in dis world r sane... rather than insane:)
p.s.... to my dear teachers.. sorry i doubted ur wisdom:)

the mummy n sex and the city

the mummy 3 cannot be compared 2 de mummy 1 n 2... which was damn scary n creepy!!
it was more like a national treasure styled movie..
sex in de city was soooooooooo nice!!
girls shud totally go watch it with ur circle of best girlfrens!!!
my money was put to good use:)

results

results r coming out in about 2 weeks time... the thought of it...
well... i'd rather not think about it...
but... the king's scholar was announced n it's a person from b.a.c.....
not that i was expecting it..
but.. i really hope.. dat 2 all de ppl who were so confident i wud get it n couldnt stop telling me how sure they were that i wud get it...
i hope u realize... i am not that smart... n i highly doubt that i was even close 2 it...so next time... jus don say anythin k... coz it juz feels wrong...
by the way... at least 2 ppl in college owe me starbucks... but i bet u all (u know who u are)wud have conveniently forgotten all about it by now... rite?

dilemma

here's something pretty scary n whack at the same time...
i found out bout an employee(m)...... her employer... once when angry.. screwed the person's keys into m's belly... (it hurts.. try it...)
n another time.. m was apparently strangled... till she almost collapsed.. thank goodness thr was something 2 divert her attn away.. or else..
de whack part of it.. is... she apparently had gotten hit by a chair which was like 10 kg hard wood... on her head.. n apparently came out unscathed.. altho this was not by the employer.. so...is this all a figmemt of m's imagination? no1 can come out without getting injured.. can they??
i honestly dont know.. but if it is true.. wat do i do?
i'm just praying that everything will be ok for now... i assured m dat de malaysian police will not let her employer get off scot free in the event anything serious happens... since de individual wud clearly be the 1 responsible... was i too bold in saying that/ or do i really have that much confidence that justice will be served?

helping hands... really?

rumah chrestus (i think dats how its spelt) is the name of the home i visited with de rotaract club..
guess wat?
apparently...a rat drops by 2 visit!!! i hate those fuzzy little horrible monsters.. n no amt of watching ratatouille is gonna change the way i feel about it!! eeeewww!! n i really dont understand wy some ppl pay money 2 buy em at pet shops!!
after a long day of hardwork... (which caused a lot of bodyache!!!!)
we were pretty satisfied with wat we did;) hepefull.. we cleaned it enuff 2 send de rats packing...
2 any1 reading this... u shud try doing sumting not 4 urself once in a while.. it really feels good:)

u know wat de really annoying part was? this 2 ppl.. who came 2 "help".... most of de time.. were on their phones.. n were lying down on de bed with their phones!!!
wat the*^%$#$%@#$&(*$^@#%&$%^!!! (thr shall be no profanities used) haha
i swear.. i nearly.. almost.. gave them de worst scolding they wud have ever gotten in their bloody lives.. thank goodness they left by de time i exploded
bloody hell!! who asked u 2 come? don come.. fine... if u come.. n really cant help.. pls don lie doen on de freaking bed.. while dest of us r breaking our backs painting n scrubbing the floor@!!!!

my very own blog:)

my 1st blog... when its like so not the craze anymore... haha
oh well... why do i wanna start a blog?
an nur said it was evil... well.. thr's nothing like temptation 2 suck u in:)